Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Let It Go!

Mood: Blur
Listen to: Ku Ingin Engkau by Vagetoz

Do you know how does it feels to be the only person who keeps on waiting for a miracle to stitch back those torn pieces together? I've been waiting for nothing. I don't actually wait, its just that I've been staying put at the same spot these days. Taking a step forward, but moving back to the same spot. And keeps on remaining that way until now.

Let it go! I keep pursuing myself to just let it go. But I still keep on stalking and trying to get what I stupidly thought it was mine. WAS, remember. So let it go!

There were few opportunities I've been selfishly took for granted. I am afraid making it into an infatuation. Those questions of moving on have been pissing over me, waiting to get it done. But I am still looking upon the closed doors. Yes, I do realised all that. Its just that it is hard for me to walk away when I am alone. I need my superhero to save me from this burden.

For God sake, let it go!

Monday, June 29, 2009


Mood: Thoughtful
Listen to: Deeper Conversation by Yunap/s: Thanks to Rean for this nice art piece..I Love it...

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Al- Fatihah

Mood: Sad

Few days back aku digemparkan dengan bad news. A person that I used to be with dah pun passed away over a cancer. Perasaan aku at that moment tak dapat nak digambarkan. Aku shocked and rush of tears suddenly pouring from my eyes. There were so many thing we both have went through. I never expected yang seawal ini dia pergi meninggalkan aku.

Memang since we got separated aku jarang jumpa dia. Maybe once a month ada la. Tapi seriously, aku seolah-olah macam tak percaya yang dia dah tiada. Aku flipped through old photos of me and him together while refreshing our memories. I cried. Aku sangat sedih knowing the fact that he is no longer here.

Apa-apa pun, aku sedekahkan Al-Fatihah untuk rohnya. Semoga dia ditempatkan dikalangan orang-orang yang baik-baik.

p/s: I am so sorry for everything that I have done. I will never ever forget you.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Stupid creatures

Mood: Pissed off
Listen: Spam by Save Ferris

I guess I was just blinded by the fact that those were just infatuations. Banyak creatures yang aku dah cuba kenali and dalami. But they all brought up into one simple conclusion; they are a bunch of liars. Sampai bila macam ni? How simple life could be if there is not lies build between us. Susah sangat ke nak jujur instead of living in denial and being hypocrite. Bodoh.

Aku pissed off sebab it effected my emotions. I am not dead inside, so for sure ada effect yang beri impact pada fikiran and emosi aku. Aku bukan robot. Now I have to learn how to hate. I have to learn how to differentiate between honest facts or lies. I must admit that it would be hard sebab those creatures memang pandai manipulate other people with just words. Stupid words that I stupidly fell for. Enough la. What goes around, surely will comes around.