Tuesday, April 21, 2015

Just an unimportant update

Hello you,

It have been ages (exaggerated) since we last met! So where should I start?

Life, I guess it was okay so far. Nothing new; same old, same old. What made it so exciting these days are my "trying-to-conquer-Asia" kinda thing. I have been travelling quite a lot these days. I went to Nagoya and Osaka last November, then to Lombok and Bali on December and I went to Siem Reap last March. I am having such a good time visiting other places, learning their cultures and meeting new people. I guess slowly I am getting out of my comfort zone. It was fun! And I am looking forward for my next trip to Seoul and Tokyo on September.

Work, still surviving. Despite all those drama and dissatisfaction, I guess I am still coping. There were times that I feel like giving up, but I still going through it. I keep reminding myself that it is just a job. Not to say that I am not ambitious or anything like that. It is just shits happen everyday; like it or not. So it is either you take it personally or just f*** it and move on. I choose to f*** it and move on; obviously.Until who knows when.

Friends, I'll try to keep it simple and intimate. I am only keeping those who are real and deserves it. As time goes by, I am sure you all will learn to appreciate and to keep what/ who is necessary in your life. Less hassle, less drama, less headache. So, I am fine with having just a number of friends who I can really call a REAL friends. How lucky am I?

Love, I wish I do not have to go there. But there were times its just feels like I am missing something somewhere. I don't actually give up. I tried to be more flamboyant and meeting other people. But, it came to a point where I started to compare and missing what I used to have before. Even when I tried to open 'the door', the one person that I truly wanted doesn't even come. Long stories for a short period of time. I might share it sooner or later. But for now, I just miss the feeling to be in love. To be deeply in love.

So I guess those would summed up what had happened so far. There were more, but I am just out of words.

Until we meet again...

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Here goes nothing


Back where we started.

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Back & Forth

Once in a while I feel like migrating. I feel like moving on to a different place, to live in a new environment. I want to taste how does it feel to be a brand new person in a brand new place; where no one knows who I am and what I have been through in the past. I can't be reborn. So I suggested myself I should just leave this place and keep going until I reach another destination. Somewhere far away from here, somewhere  unfamiliar; some other place where I can be a new 'me', meeting new people; getting new chances and living with new hope. I dreamed a lot about it these days.

But in reality, I am stuck. I can barely even move an inch. Why do I keep wondering here; the place that I am no longer belong to. I am unwanted here.

I packed my stuff and I have actually left. I have walked a few spots and ran a few miles. But somehow I am back where I began. Is there some sort of strong magnetic power here that drag me back into the circle whenever I try to escape?

Why am I still here? Can I just leave and move on? What exactly am I hoping for?  I hate feeling like this! Not knowing if I should actually stay or should I just go. Why do I have to keep questioning myself again? Do what my heart says? That really does not work at all; believe me.

Maybe I still have feeling for this place; regardless those cracks on the walls and those broken glasses. I still somehow love it here.

Do I really have to go?

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

On track

I guess I should go back on track. Perhaps I am ready physically and mentally.

I got excited since yesterday. It was nothing much actually. But I think it is a start.

Shall I start the engine and drive safely now? 

I hope I will get to the destination that I have always wanted.

Wish me luck!

Friday, July 12, 2013