Bila dah jadi macam ni, mula la kalut. Bila dah rasa tak mampu, mula la fikir I can live on my own. Konon I don't need anyone else but me, my family and my close friends. But as time goes by, mula la realized that I have been living in denial.
True bila cakap kita ada family yang menyayangi kita and friends who will always be there for us; Alhamdulillah. Persoalannya; cukupkah? There were times rasa sunyi datang. Rasa unwanted. Tengok sana sini holding hands. lovey dovey. Tipu kalau aku rasa tak cemburu. Tipu kalau aku rasa as if I don't need all of that.
Nasib tak menyebelahi atau aku kurang usaha?
Everyone deserves to love and to be love. Fakta manusia semua nak ada rasa mencintai dan dicintai. Tapi nasib bercinta macam gamble. Atau aku terlalu berserah pada takdir; kononnya takdir bole jalankan segala kerja.
Someone told me that I have to look for it. Dia tak datang jatuh dari langit.
Or maybe I am still holding back. Menanti cinta yang lama berbuah kembali. Mungkin aku tak boleh tipu diri sendiri. Mungkin ini la dinamakan cinta sejati. Persoalan hati; tak terjawab atau tak cukup berani untuk menyatakan 'ya'.