- Connie Thomas Lugo -
Rasa sunyi kadang-kadang. Rasa macam lack of attention. Each and everytime I've tried to talk about it, in the end it feels like it were all my fault. What had happened? Apa yang sebenarnya kurang? Each and everytime aku cuba kaji. Aku cuba analyzed things. Aku cuba faham both situations. Tapi kenapa it feels like I am the only one who understands? Or maybe aku masih kurang faham. But its okay. I believe aku perlu cuba untuk lebih fahami and loosen up. I really hope this could work sebab deeply inside I know it will.
Rasa communication tu kurang. There were times yang aku rasa sangat dekat and bila actually I saw his efforts towards this. I really appreciate each and everytime his sweetness just shines through it. He is still the same person inside. Cuma ada kala aku rasa left out or unwanted. Maybe its normal to be neglected for quite awhile. Maybe cuma perasaan aku yang terbawa-bawa oleh situation.
But I really do miss the moment when he is all into me. Macam you can't get even a second out of sight. Tapi things changed here and there. I just have to understand and deal with it. Or should I ask something in a way to improve this? Its not that bad. But something is missing somewhere and I guess we both just have to look after it and improvise for what its worth. Am I right?
Tapi he always be the sweetest him inside of me. He always be the person that makes me go crazy just to think about him. He will always be the only person that I adore and I surely want to spend my whole life with. We just have to let each other in. We just have to understand each other more. We have been doing good so far. I guess nothing that we can't go through when we keep faith to each other. Just improvise.
p/s: I miss you..so bad...