On track

I guess I should go back on track. Perhaps I am ready physically and mentally.

I got excited since yesterday. It was nothing much actually. But I think it is a start.

Shall I start the engine and drive safely now? 

I hope I will get to the destination that I have always wanted.

Wish me luck!

Coming soon

Saya bukan heartless.

Pernah terfikir untuk jadi numb sampai orang kata aku heartless. Aku bukan heartless. Way the opposite, actually. Aku masih punya perasaan la. After all, aku manusia biasa macam kamu semua. I am not dead inside. Cuma I still need those hypodermic syringe yang akan menyuntik aku with those feelings yang usually buat aku stoned. I am still the same old me. Cuma few changes here and there untuk buat aku lebih matured. 

As a person aku memang punya tahap ego, tapi tidak setinggi yang kamu sangkakan. I am still easy to melt. Life ini mungkin complicated. Tapi I am easy to pleased. Cuma at this point, more efforts are needed to gain whatever that you are expecting from me. Trust perhaps.

Aku masih hopeless romantic. Jiwa aku masih penuh dengan perasaan to love and be love. Masih mencari those who I can share almost everything with. Aku cuba deny atau tolak tepi soal perasaan. Tapi aku tidak give up 100%. Who would ever want to be alone? Mungkin aku masih menanti sesuatu with more positive opportunity yang juga mungkin menghasilkan positive outcome. Bukan bermaksud aku making a big deal out of a small thing. Its just human fact. Aku just perlu satu keyakinkan diri yang pada mana both of us are M.F.E.O.

No! Big talks doesn't turn me on. Yes! Those crappy cheap talk bothers me a lot. Well, sweet talks still melt me a little bit. But, it is more realistic talks will always win and which is something I've been looking forward to. Even if we do all the talking, that will still be not enough. You need actions and efforts to get what you want. 

Aku sendiri masih berusaha and looking for a great day ahead. Aku pasti someway, somehow those what I am looking for masih exist and available for me.

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I have lost track of time.

I wish you were here.

Relationship Perfection

• HONESTY It is clear that honesty is vital to the health of all relationships. Mutual trust, openness, and understanding are the key contributors to feelings of relationship and intimacy. Conversely it is very hard to be in a relationship with a person who distorts or withholds information critical to that relationship.

• LOYALTY Loyalty means devoted commitment that cannot be broken easily. To be loyal, means to adhere to all the promises made for the lifetime. Loyalty is rather a very easy word but a very laudable quality that is difficult to keep for a lot many people. If I commit to someone about my relationship and that person goes broke after sometime, does not mean that I will look for richer persons. Every relationship rests on trust and truth. If the relationship began with lies, it can never sustain. The foundation is of lies. How truth can grow from the seed of lie? The first need or requirement of going in a long-term relationship is to be truthful in all respects. Fooling others into believing untruths is a sin.

• PASSION The feeling physically aroused and attracted to someone. Passion is what makes you feel "in love" and is the feeling most associated with love. It also rises quickly and strongly influences and biases your judgment.

• INTIMACY The feeling close and connected to someone (developed through sharing and very good communications over time). Intimacy is what makes you want to share and offer emotional and material support to each other.

• COMMITMENT/ RESPONSIBILITY Pledging to your self and each other to strengthen the feelings of love and to actively maintain the relationship. Commitment is what makes you want to be serious, have a serious relationship and promise to be there for the other person if things get tough.