Makin lama makin ANNOYING

Mood: Annoyed
Listen to: The World Is New by Save Ferris

Human are getting more and more annoying once you getting to know them. Even sometimes, the jokes were not that funny anymore. Its sickeningly annoying. You can't just go and call people you barely even know with stupid nicknames that can easily hurt other people's feeling. I do have a sense of sensitivity and it can easily be touch by something irritating as that. I am not making a big deal out of it. I might even used to it. Its just that sometimes you have to see where, how and who to put your joke on. You have to know how it may effect people's feeling. I don't have to argue about it. You should have known this before you said something stupid like that especially when you only knew me for a short period. That wasn't cool. It sounded stupid, discriminative and annoying.


Seriously, I forgived but I could never forget. Its like one point has been deducted from you. So watch what you'll be saying the next time you talk to me. I'm not a heartless creature. I am human with sensitivity.

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"I'm your biggest fan,
I'll follow you until you love me...."

- Paparazzi by Lady Gaga

Trapped

Mood: Blur
Listen to: Pizza Cutter by Letter to Cleo

At this very moment, I just don't know what I want anymore. I don't know what exactly my priorities are. KUSUT! I don't want to break my heart or to hurt myself for having this feelings towards any person. I know it will be to complicate if I continue to have this feelings. Why does it seems so hard?

"Just let the feeling go. Find someone new."

I wish it could be as easy as it sounds. It was my mistake for falling for this particular person. It was my fault for not letting it go at the early stage. Somehow, I think its just too late to get rid of everything. My mind says NO but my heart says YES. I am trapped in my own feelings. Should I confess or should I just be coward enough to keep my mouth shut? Either way, I know it would be wrong. I seriously don't know. I should have swallow my own feelings, but it going to kill me deep inside knowing that I might waste such a wonderful person like him. On the other way around, I might even get hurt if I find out that he is not on my reach.

What should I do? How should I react? Why can't I just take this easy way out?

Do Not Trust...

Mood: Disappointed
Listen to: You by The Afters


"Don't gave in so easily. You shouldn't have trusted him in the first place".
- That was an advice from a friend after all of the things had happened. It is too late, but I'll take it for the future reference. I told myself, "do not trust people so easily". But the fact is, I easily believed and took whatever people said was sincere enough. The jokes on me. I am the one yang kena tipu at the end of it. I shouldn't put all the blame on them. Some of it were because of me. It was my fault to trust. It was my fault to fall for liars. It was my fault to easily gave in so easily. And now it was my fault for being so stupid sampai kena tipu.
Karma? I don't think I've ever done this to anyone. At least not from my concern. So karma wasn't the perfect answer for this.


"He is not the one for you".
- How can I tell who is the right one for me? Tak ada apa-apa visual sign pun yang boleh detect if that person is right for me or not. Biasa la, when it comes to the excitement of getting to know people semua nampak as if that is the right person. Until we trambled and fell baru realised that you have got the wrong person. 'Teeetttt!'. If only ada buzzer on me yang boleh detect siapa betul and siapa tipu, I would spend fortune to get it done for me. Sebab I've failed so many times and keep on falling for lies people told me. I need a lie detector I guess.


I am so not in the mood right now. It have been so hard and I am getting tired. Why couldn't I just quit? Some say not until I find the right person. But the 'right person' is missing somewhere and the 'wrong person' seemed to be so right. How?

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